Are you the person you imagined people your age to be?
When you were younger did you have an idea of what people were like at 30? 40? For instance, I remember thinking women who were 30 were SO grown up and had their shit together... Then I hit 30 and realized what a joke that was. If you had an image of what life looked like at a certain age, are you the person that you imagined at your current age?
I am hitting a milestone birthday this year and I'm definitely not what I imagined a woman my age would be. Yes, I have a career and a spouse, but I do not "feel" my age or the way I viewed women my age when I was younger.
Am I alone in this? Does this make me immature or delusional? Do I need to call my therapist? And listen, I definitely don't feel 25, but I just thought I'd feel differently at this age.
I still sometimes think I'm 13.
It's funny — I never viewed adulthood through accomplishments or career wins. I mostly looked at adulthood as fun, based mostly off of what I saw on shows like Friends. I do sometimes think that leaves me in a state of arrested development, but, then again, I would be sad if I didn't retain at least a little bit of a child-like view of the world.
One thing I did not expect was the level of back pain.
I guess I always thought of being a grown up as being... settled. Like everything is in its place. But now, I imagine that being "settled" would feel like I'm done growing and I hope that never happens... and yes, I agree, I did not anticipate the amount of heartburn and achy body parts.
Agreed, but I always felt like "settled" seemed boring. Never imagined a white picket fence, so the chaos of adulthood has always been kind of fun for me. Like... what's around that corner?! Who knows! Bring it!
(I sound like I have a ton of joie de vivre, but, believe me, there are days that chaos also brings me SO much anxiety, lol. It's a balancing act in my head.)
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