"You can get yeeted off the stage first and shit still fucking happens." Canada's Drag Race's Juice Boxx knows from experience. After being the first eliminated contestant from the export's first season, Juice Boxx only saw her world and opportunities open up — so much so that she tells Exposed: Dragged Out's Joseph Shepherd that she might not even come back for an all-stars.

But her success post-Drag Race isn't all that she talks about. Joseph and Juice Boxx talk panic attacks, her iconic lip-sync, and, well... let's just say you might not want to keep the feint of heart away from this very X-rated chat.

Sashay your way to the play button below to listen to the episode, or read on for the full, unedited transcript, in which Juice Boxx touches more on her mental health, and so much more.

Joseph Shepherd:
Welcome to Dragged Out. I am your host, Joseph Shepherd. That's me in case you didn't know and each week we dive into a one-on-ones with some of your favorite queens, who just so happen to maybe go home first on a Drag Race franchise, whether they you know, deserved it or not. And today's guest is all the way just a little bit North of the US from the Drag Race franchise, Canada's Drag Race to be exact, please welcome Juice Boxx.

Juice Boxx:
Hi. How are you?

Joseph Shepherd:
Good. I'm doing good. How are you?

Juice Boxx:
I'm good. Thriving colds in the Great White North.

Joseph Shepherd:
Is it cold up there?

Juice Boxx:
No, it's actually not. It's not at all. It's just been raining for the past like 20 days, but it's actually pretty mild out right now.

Joseph Shepherd:
I texted one of your friends earlier because I wanted to see if they had like any juicy questions that I should ask you and I just feel like I have to get this out of the way right when we start before we get into you. It's from somebody named Priyanka.

Juice Boxx:
Oh.

Joseph Shepherd:
You know her.

Juice Boxx:
I was like who?

Joseph Shepherd:
Your face literally was like, "What in the world?"

Juice Boxx:
Who did you text?

Joseph Shepherd:
So, I said, "Juice Boxx is joining my podcast later today. Is there anything I need to bring up or embarrass them with?"

Juice Boxx:
No.

Joseph Shepherd:
Priyanka said...

Juice Boxx:
There he goes.

Joseph Shepherd:
... "She lent me her fleshlight when she got eliminated from Drag Race."

Juice Boxx:
I would say "lent" is a really loose term. I feel like it was a gift. A beautiful gift.

Joseph Shepherd:
That's what I would take it as, too. Because she didn't return it, did she?

Juice Boxx:
No. My God. No, absolutely not. But yeah, I did give her, after I got eliminated, I gave her my fleshlight.

Joseph Shepherd:
That's a story for the ages. I am dying.

Juice Boxx:
It's so good.

Joseph Shepherd:
She sent that and I literally was like, "No, that's just Priyanka being Priyanka and totally buying."

Juice Boxx:
No, it's real. It's very real. It basically what happened was I had just gotten eliminated and we were doing press for the commercial or whatever, and I hadn't really got to see anybody since they yeeted me off the fucking stage, right? So, I'm standing there and I'm just, I had kind of like accepted it and I was like, "Yeah, I'm going home." Duh-duh-duh-duh. But they all knew I brought a fleshlight. And so, I was just like, "Yeah and I fuckin bought this fleshlight for no reason and I'm just going to go home and what? Use it? What the fuck?"

Juice Boxx:
And they all looked at me like, "Give me the fleshlight." And Priyanka, you know how Priyanka has that eye-to-eye thing that she does. She looks at you into your soul. She grabbed me and she's like, "Do not look at anybody else. Give me the flashlight. I need the fleshlight. Give me the fleshlight. I need it. I need it. I need it. I will do anything. Give me the fleshlight."

Juice Boxx:
So, I was like, "This girl is going to die if I do not give this to her." So, I gave it to her. I had a Queen's care person put it in a little bag and carry it down to her room and I made and they had to like radio like, "Flying the fleshlight over to Priyanka."

Joseph Shepherd:
Yes. Stop this right now. That's the story. Wow.

Juice Boxx:
Do you know what? I kept her stress levels so fucking down because she was just pounding that thing every night that she won Drag Race. So, I'd like to think that-

Joseph Shepherd:
You were the reason why.

Juice Boxx:
I'm the reason why she won.

Joseph Shepherd:
And she needs to know that. You helped her with her stress and she really needed that.

Juice Boxx:
I feel like I drive that home for her quite a lot, anyway, so.

Joseph Shepherd:
So, I was doing a little bit of research into your life and everything. And I wanted to kind of know when did you actually start doing drag? When did you find a love for that?

Juice Boxx:
I started I think it was... I always say six, but I have a feeling it was eight years ago now because like these past two years have gone by so weirdly. So, I think it's like and we're going to say between six and eight because I don't fucking know. But I started just like randomly, I remember I was friends with a lot of the Queens. I was partying a lot. I was going out all the time and I really didn't have a lot of confidence and I really felt really bad about myself. I was really skinny and losing my hair and stuff.
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And if you're gay and you don't have big muscles and a chiseled jaw, you're fucking Gollum to everybody. So I was just like ugh. So, I remember watching Queens and being like, "Holy fuck. They look so hot and they look so cool. And they don't have to wait in lines and they get free drinks." I was like, "That looks really fun."

Joseph Shepherd:
Just for the free drinks. You're just in drag for... that's why your name's Juice Boxx. You need the juice box.

Juice Boxx:
Well, exactly. Well, and I developed a bit of a fucking drinking problem from that, but I was originally, I was like, "Oh, free booze. Let's do it."

Joseph Shepherd:
You said a drinking problem. You also mentioned it on the show. And you said that you were, what, two years sober when you were doing the show?

Juice Boxx:
Yeah, I was just about to hit two years in January. So, I was just shy of two when I was on the show and now, I'm at just past three.

Joseph Shepherd:
Wow. So, you've actually kept it up and maintained.

Juice Boxx:
Yeah. Never in my life have I wanted a fucking Mimosa and Sangria more than being on lockdown, but yeah, I've kept it up.

Joseph Shepherd:
Was there a turning point or a moment that you decided that, "Hey, I want to be sober," or was it a choice or what went through your head?

Juice Boxx:
It was a gradual thing. I remember, I was sort of slowing down on the drinking because I remember when I would drink, I would get fucking annihilated. I was trying to get really serious about my health and my fitness. And I remember I hated feeling hung over all the time. So, I remember for about a year, I was slowing it down, but then I would just binge drink. So then when I would drink, I would just get hammered, right? So, I just kind of decided just put the brakes on everything, slowed it all down. And then I remember, it was my honeymoon. We went to Disney because we're Cheugy Disney adults, me and my husband.

Joseph Shepherd:
Wait. You're married?

Juice Boxx:
Yeah.

Joseph Shepherd:
Oh.

Juice Boxx:
Did you think this was- Is this a date?

Joseph Shepherd:
No, my boyfriend would kill me. He'd be, "What are you doing?" No, no. I would literally... no, that's awesome. Okay, so it's honeymoon.

Juice Boxx:
So, we were on our honeymoon in Disney because we're horrible Disney adults. And it was my idea. I was like, "I really want to go to Disney." He was like, "Ugh, fine." So, we're there and I remember we were at this... it was raining. It was -1 degree in January in Florida. It was so fucking weird, so we were cold. And we were getting a drink at this Tiki Bar and I looked at my husband. I was like, "I don't think I'm going to drink anymore." And he's like, "Are you serious?" And I was like, "Yeah, I don't think I want to. I think I'm done. I don't think I'm going to drink the whole honeymoon. And I'm probably just going to keep it up." And he's like, "Okay, well, that drink in front of you was $13, so I'm going to drink that. And you have fun not drinking." So it was like, "Okay."

Joseph Shepherd:
Has he continued to drink or did he do it sober with you?

Juice Boxx:
No, he's continued to drink, but he doesn't have... he wasn't... because when you're drinking and you're performing, it's so accessible, right? You don't have to pay for a thing. And if you do have to pay, you can find somebody in the audience to pay for you, right? "Can I have a shot?" Brrrrrrr, eight shots right in front of you, right? So, he's like if he wants to drink a bottle of wine, put in his headphones and get wasted and have a dance party in the kitchen, go have fun.

Joseph Shepherd:
Go ahead, yeah.

Juice Boxx:
Yeah. Go out and enjoy yourself. But when my dance party was constantly and it was just not good. So, he's fine. Drink all you want babe, but I just can't.

Joseph Shepherd:
But that's a good thing. When you start getting older and you start realizing for yourself what your limits are and what you need and don't need in your body or in life, that's such a great feeling to have and knowing that you're in control of something.